Amanda Knox Discusses The Pain She Feels Following Recent Miscarriage

Exoneree Amanda Knox has revealed in a new episode of her podcast that she and her husband are working through a devastating miscarriage.

In the first episode of a five-part miniseries on infertility, created for the ongoing podcast "Labyrinths" she says that she and her husband Christopher Robinson "got pregnant very fast" after she got her IUD removed. The podcast includes snippets of recordings that the couple made, talking to their future child.

While a pregnancy test told them they had conceived, soon doctors gave dire news.

"We went back in a week later — that week sucked, waiting — and it hadn't grown. It didn't have a heartbeat," Knox, who turned 34 on Friday, said. "That was confusing to me, because I thought, 'Why would there be a dead baby just hanging out in there? If it wasn't viable, why wasn't it going away?' My body didn't even know, and that felt weird to me. ... I didn't know that you could have a missed miscarriage."

The baby did not leave her system so a doctor recommended she take a pill-based miscarriage to induce the miscarriage. 

Getting emotional, she recalled "shaking" from abdominal pain "like I've never experienced before.” She said she experienced days of "birthing blood, wads of blood, not like a period at all."

"I did feel incredibly disappointed that that was the story of my first-ever pregnancy," she said. "I thought, like, I knew exactly what I want to do with my first pregnancy, and to have it not come to fruition not through choice felt like a betrayal.”

Crying, she explained, "I don't know who that baby was. I don't know if I'll ever know. It's a weird thought."

The couple is trying to conceive again but made it clear that what had been an exciting experience has become upsetting. 

 "It's not a fun thing, which it was before. It was fun making the baby room, and it was fun to f--- like bunny rabbits." 

As a response to sharing her story, Knox received some hateful messages including one that told her "I hope all ur children die before ur ever able to hold them alive."

Knox tweeted as a response, “But if even one person sees this and chooses to support my work, that hate backfires.”

Knox was internationally vilified after she became a suspect in the 2007 murder of Meredith Kercher, her British roommate while they were both studying in Perugia, Italy. Both she and her boyfriend Raffaele Sollecito went through a tumultuous series of convictions and acquittals that spanned eight years before Italy’s highest court acquitted both of Kercher’s murder convictions for a final time in 2015. By that point, Knox had spent about four years behind bars in an Italian prison.

Knox was the subject of salacious and intense media coverage in Italy and around the world as her saga unfolded; she was once dubbed “Foxy Knoxy” during her ignominious time in the spotlight. She has now become an advocate for the wrongfully convicted.